Saturday, April 01, 2006

commit...something (ported from myspace)

so the topic of commitment has been placed on the table. it's weird...the other day, i heard that it was brought up that i'm not ready to "commit" in the relationship. i guess that's just a shocker to me, because i'm pretty much Mr. Commitment. i'm all about looking for a wife and not just someone to hang out with for the current week/day/whatever. so yeah, it came as a shock to me. i guess the bottom line is that sok is ready for a ring and i'm not ready to give it to her.

i'm still not convinced that i'm not commited. let's see what webster says..."com·mit·ment Pronunciation (k-mtmnt)
1. The act or an instance of committing, especially:
a. The act of referring a legislative bill to committee.
b. Official consignment, as to a prison or mental health facility.
c. A court order authorizing consignment to a prison.
a. A pledge to do.
b. Something pledged, especially an engagement by contract involving financial obligation.
3. The state of being bound emotionally or intellectually to a course of action or to another person or persons: a deep commitment to liberal policies; a profound commitment to the family."'s applikashun falls under number 2a and 3. (little aside haha about 2a...that's funny stuff in the context of the current discussion...i guess 1c could be funny too...or maybe not so funny...hmm). anyhow...number 3. yeah, so i'm bound emotionally and intellectually to the relationship. i have a profound commitment to her. I think it's to the point where i'm feeling obligated (a. A social, legal, or moral requirement, such as a duty, contract, or promise that compels one to follow or avoid a particular course of action.) to propose and that somehow, there is now a sense of urgency to the matter. that's where it gets back to the lack of health derived from the female biological clock. (detrimental to the relationship).

hmm yeah....i'm not sure that i really had much to say about commitment, except that i'm commited to the relationship...but it is being spread about that i'm not... because i haven't purchased a (really freakin expensive) ring. haha. um yeah. so i have trust issues and i dont want to "take the plunge" until i'm totally sure that this chick proves her saltiness and i'm not there yet. bottom freakin line. :P anyhow...i'm thinking that i might just have a chronic issue with humans in general and that i will never be satisfied with someone else (or myself, for that matter...i'm pretty much worthless)., on with the show
this complete waste of time was sponsored by your local sleep deprivation clinic (i'm sooooooo in need of a good night's rest...) blarhrl'aslkj

Currently listening:
In Your Honor
By Foo Fighters
Release date: 14 June, 2005